resolve to evolve

Happiness Hints, According to Merrill Markoe

Tue, 10 Apr 2012 11:46:00 -0400

#1 Plan a party and invite the people you care about. #2 Incorporate physical exercise into your...

See, Lady Ennui?

Fri, 02 Mar 2012 02:03:11 -0500

See, Lady Ennui?

Excuse the following capitalization, but I really CANNOT BELIEVE...

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 07:57:00 -0500

Excuse the following capitalization, but I really CANNOT BELIEVE I HAVEN’T BEEN SPELLING MY CAT’S NAME SURELY. How can I be a lifelong* Arrested Development fan, once refer to Surely Funke in an internet username, have a cat and name her Shirley and not spell it Surely?? I’m a bit baffled by that oversight.

From this day forth, she shall be known as Surely Monkey Martin.

*I was just a shell of a person before its premiere.

I jotted down this quote recognizing the wisdom of the...

Fri, 04 Nov 2011 13:56:00 -0400

I jotted down this quote recognizing the wisdom of the sentiment, but I could only hope one day I would know it to be true. What little identity I had seemed predicated on my desire to be invisible. I was far from fulfilling any purpose.

Things have changed. I can actually feel my identity developing inside of me, being accepted by my heart, appreciated by my brain and expressed by my actions. And it has truly started to sow the first seeds of purpose and hope and happiness that I’ve felt in a long time. Of course, I’ve been happy plenty of times before, but it’s the first time in my life that it’s a constant, deep and true love for myself that has never been there. It’s not so much a tape running over in my head, LOVE LOVE LOVE, like some of my more negative, obsessive thoughts. It’s more subtle and transformative, like a beautiful smell that is always lingering around me. Everything is better with that perfume in my nose. It focuses me and reminds me that underneath it all, at the end of the day, I am good enough to do anything I want. And sometimes I might be much better than I think.

One fun thing about my neighborhood is the frequency of...

Wed, 28 Sep 2011 03:38:14 -0400

One fun thing about my neighborhood is the frequency of fireworks happening a few blocks away. This neighbor kid, trying to take advantage of his unfettered view from the moderately safe roof access outside of his window, asked his dad if he could climb up the ladder and sit out on the roof. Dad said no, so he asked Mom and she said yes. Because that’s an awesome idea. Dad was not happy and demanded he come back inside. I was bummed for this kid. It really picked up after he was banished from the festivities. Could have been a cool experience for him and an epic photo opportunity for me. Not that I’m in the habit of taking pictures of neighborhood children— I just couldn’t resist.

One song always makes me compelled to say something like,...

Wed, 28 Sep 2011 02:59:07 -0400

One song always makes me compelled to say something like, “This is the song my soul would sing if my soul sang.” It matches me and serves well as a mantra to encourage the resolve. From beginning to end. It speaks to me.

Am I laying it on thick?

{Present/Infant, Ani DiFranco}

Nowhere Near the End

Wed, 21 Sep 2011 13:21:00 -0400

Today’s the day. September 21, 2011. On my 24th birthday, 12/21/09, I resolved to evolve. Prompted...

Catching up on some Rachel Maddow. I’m impressed by her...

Wed, 23 Mar 2011 23:26:00 -0400

Catching up on some Rachel Maddow. I’m impressed by her ability to say “spent fuel pools” over and over. Like, 43 times.* That would trip me up at least once, but she’s doing pretty well with it. What is she, a professional broadcaster or something?

But I win at raising one eyebrow. Take that, Maddow. You’re not so great. Yes you are…

*That’s an estimate. My OCD makes me want to go back and actually count how many times she said it in the last few episodes. That sounds like a monumental waste of time and energy, but now that I’ve typed it… It kills me not to know the exact number. But I’ll try to move on.

Another Conversation With A Child That Could Have Thrown Me Into A Hate Spiral, But Didn't:

Mon, 28 Feb 2011 23:25:00 -0500

Sidenote: 30 seconds earlier, this kid sneezed and a thick rope of yellow snot stretched from his...

Today's Conversation That Could Have Thrown Me Into A Hate Spiral, But Didn't:

Thu, 24 Feb 2011 21:03:54 -0500

Kid: Hey, Rebecca. Do you know which Mario character you remind me of? [Moderately attractive guy at...

Watched Intervention last night. Cried through the brother and...

Tue, 22 Feb 2011 12:45:11 -0500

Watched Intervention last night. Cried through the brother and sister reunion in Megan’s story and I thought that MaryAnne’s 12 year old son Jackson was the shit. So smart, confident and sweet, but his silver nail polish really put him over the edge.

I feel like this. I hope Michael Showalter comes back to the...

Sun, 20 Feb 2011 13:11:00 -0500

I feel like this. I hope Michael Showalter comes back to the theater some day so he can sign something that I’ll use as a bookmark in his new book. It only took me 2 months to use this giftcard, you guys! That’s not so bad… It usually takes me over a year to spend free money. It’s hard to commit when you never think you are making the right decision.

This has been my 100th post.

Nora Kirkpatrick, Will you be my Valentine?

Mon, 14 Feb 2011 22:07:00 -0500

Nora Kirkpatrick,

Will you be my Valentine?

Today’s Video of Multiple Views. Thanks, music, for being...

Wed, 05 Jan 2011 01:23:08 -0500

Today’s Video of Multiple Views. Thanks, music, for being awesome.

Photo

Mon, 03 Jan 2011 15:01:21 -0500

“Is this no longer relevent? Is this no longer in the...

Sat, 18 Dec 2010 01:54:31 -0500

“Is this no longer relevent? Is this no longer in the zeitgeist?” {Maria Bamford’s hilarious reaction to a suggestion she get botox.}

Ok, I originally posted the 9th episode (Bread), but I want to...

Mon, 29 Nov 2010 03:05:00 -0500

Ok, I originally posted the 9th episode (Bread), but I want to post the first one to promote that this whole series be watched and enjoyed. I’ve been a fan of Maria Bamford’s since I was 16, but this basically takes it to a new level. We’re pretty much identical cousins. I never knew. And I’ve never laughed so much at four in the morning.

Original message (with episode 9): This totally just made me cry and I wasn’t expecting it. Maria Bamford’s a crazy genius and this is proof. Watch till the end; It’s all worth it.

ETA: I posted this before watching the series from the beginning. I can’t believe how amazing it is. This might be, like, a benchmark in my pop culture appreciation. I feel a kindred spirit with this lady.

The thing about leaving my cat alone for a couple of days is that when I get home and pet her, she...

Sat, 27 Nov 2010 18:58:30 -0500

The thing about leaving my cat alone for a couple of days is that when I get home and pet her, she...

Step 1: Admit you have a problem.

Fri, 26 Nov 2010 15:05:35 -0500

Step 1: Admit you have a problem.

Tomorrow’s theme. Hopefully tomorrow it will be...

Tue, 16 Nov 2010 01:00:00 -0500

Tomorrow’s theme. Hopefully tomorrow it will be Today’s theme. {Time Away, Arthur Russell}